Thursday, December 9, 2010

R.I.P. My Friend

I'll admit it.  I haven't been in so much a Bah Humbug! mood as mentally preparing for the worst.

Today, the worst happened.  

Our 12.5 year old chocolate lab, Smokey, had to be put to sleep.  I'm guessing that's gonna hurt for a while.

To most people, Smokey was just a dog.  And although I'd like to think of us as non-weird dog people, he was the oldest child we never had.  He was even famous in his neck of the woods, known for finding deer that a hunter couldn't find...and having no problem pointing out when the hunter had missed.

We jokingly referred to Smokey as "Smokey the Wonder Dog...and Local Legend".
Smokey got sick last month and even though he confounded the Vet by never running a fever, eating like a pig and having normal bodily functions, he just couldn't breathe.  I have asthma...I kinda took that not breathing thing harder than most.  For the past month, I've hidden his meds in all kinds of treats but this morning, when I sat down to rub his belly before going to work, I had this sinking feeling that this would be our last morning chat.

The worst part was taking off work to run Hubby's business [he's self employed] so Hubby could take Smokey to a Specialist a little over an hour away.   Every phone call was agony: the prognosis kept getting worse and although intellectually it was obvious we needed to help him "slip the bonds of earth", it's tough when your heart keeps yelling, "It's not fair!"

I hated that Hubby had to face the grim reality of this alone.  You see, he and Smokey are practically inseparable and I knew this would hurt.

I had no idea my heart would break too.

So here's to Smokey the Wonder Dog and Local Legend; Hubby's hunting buddy,  Bou's dear old Dad and my snuggle buddy on the couch.


In the words of my Dad, "You done good!"

May you run in heaven and never tire.

24 comments:

Rachel Fox said...

Oh Hope, so sorry.
x

Monkey Man said...

So sorry. The are like children to us, yet we are bound to outlive them.

steven said...

hope i don't have any animals but the ones i had as a kid were my brothers and sisters and that whole piece has never changed for me so i really get your hurting and so i am sorry for you but then i wonder what he's come back as this time around?! steven

savannah said...
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savannah said...

oh, sister hope, i am so sorry for your loss. you have my heart, sugar. xoxoxo

Titus said...

hope, my heart to you. I am so sorry for the loss of such a wonderful dog.
Look after yourselves over there.
Love from all of us.

Jingle said...

sorry to hear that.
wow,
sad indeed.
today will pass, feel better tomorrow.

time does heal at some point.

mapstew said...

Oh my love my heart bleeds for you. It reallly does kid! Much love to both of you! xxxxxxx

Brighid said...

I'm so sorry Hope. We lost Maxwell The Wonder Cowdog in June. He was the best buddy ever for 17+ years. We often tell stories of his exploits. I'm glad to have known him. Again sorry for your loss.

Ponita in Real Life said...

Dearest Hope... I know how tough this was... but knowing he's not having a hard time breathing anymore, that he isn't suffering, tempers the hurt just a tiny bit. Been there on several occasions myself over the years. Although you know in your heart of hearts it was the right thing to do, it is still such a painful decision to make. And to not be there for hubby or old dog, is that much tougher. Hug that man of yours, and hug that younger dog... he's got a bunch of his dad in him. xoxoxoxo

Bill ~ {The Old Fart} said...

Hope, I am sorry to read this. It is hard to lose a beloved animal. They become like our children and are part of the family. We always keep a special place in our Hearts for our pets, and once the pain goes away, you will have your treasured memories.

Charlie said...

Hope and Hubby, it's so sad to hear about your beloved Smokey. He's in dog heaven by now, and I hope he's met out little "Punkers"—I'm sure they'll be great pals while Smokey waits for you.

mapstew said...

ps, got my first Blogger Christmas card today, from YOU! :¬)

xxx

Thom said...

My dear sweet Hope. I'm so sorry to hear about Smokey. May he rest in peace always. What a cutie he is I tell you. They become such a part of our families. My heart goes out to you and your family. Cherish the memories of him always. Me Ke Aloha

hope said...

Thanks y'all! It really did help to just "get it out" here among my bloggy friends.

They say you get one "really good" dog in life and that was our boy. Not that his son Bou, isn't a hoot. :)

Today I printed the annual calendar of "DaBoys" which goes in Hubby's shop. It's been ready since mid summer but I always have to wait until now to add in the dates of archery tournaments for the next year. Thought it would make me sad but it made me laugh! Thursday I would've said, "Never again!" but the tradition will continue.

Who knows...maybe one day we'll have a Son of Bou to add to the family.

Again, thanks for your kindness and understanding. And for not referring to me as a nutty...fill in the blank. :)

shug said...

That's very bad news. Sorry.

hope said...

Thanks Shug.

Peggy said...

Oh Hope; I am so sorry.
Your post made me cry and remember my Lab, Wheaton. She looked at me that last day, and she told me what to do, I've never been so sure in my life that I made the right call. It still hurts though, funny it's been 4 years,
Maybe they are both running in Heaven together!
My heart aches for you both.

Dianne said...

I am so sorry for your loss
as someone who has loved many a four legged wonder I know how your hear feels

hugs

Lisa Ricard Claro said...

So sorry, Hope, for your loss. It is heartbreaking to lose a furry kid; their paw prints stay with us forever. God bless.

Scott said...

I pray that Smokey runs free and happy, ears a flappin' all the way!

To me, there is no "just some dog..." but that's me. I'm like you, they are people almost (and sometimes more) than people are :)

God Bless, hang in there.

Ms.Daisy said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved pet.





~Jean

Larry said...

Yes I have my special dog t6oo and love him with all my heart I know you will miss him and just wanted to let you know that I feel your pain also and hope the best for the memories are all joyful ones.

Sorry for your loss Hope...
Larry@This Blog Of Mine...

hope said...

Thanks to everyone for their kind words.

Now if I could only explain it to his son Bou, who keeps looking for him. Sigh.